Not losing the dream

Sent.

It lasted a long long time until a really had the guts to push the send button. There are some moments in our lifes when a small click is the final thing that makes the difference. I finally decided to run for president of aiesec international for the next term.

Throughout the last few weeks I was running through a quite challenging self discovery process. Let me share some of the thoughts that went through my head...

AI?, strategic thinking skills, far away, what happens to my friends in Austria?, unique chance, risk?, take it, too old?, about a quarter of my life consumed and probably a tenth lived – so why not?, why not PAI?, too selfish and arrogant, am I the right leader for this organization?, what is your vision Peter?, will I be able to share it?, will I be qualified?, knowledge, passion, connection, sadness, loneliness, vision, believe, risk, feelings, emotions, spirit, love, do it – JUST DO IT

In the end I believe that we as individuals are very often lacking the final step: Being afraid to fail an exam and therefore missing a life-changing conference, thinking that we are to weak and running away, thinking the girl doesn't like us and letting her go home with this random striker, not applying because of insecurity, saying no and dreaming yes.... We are so close to succeed but the last 1% that is missing we are so much afraid of. We are lacking the final "click"...

I had a nice chat with mate some days ago - maybe it's as well the culture of extreme self-reflection that AIESEC has at the moment. A culture were you question everything you do, question your identity, your actions, your thoughts... Don't get me wrong - nothing bad about it. What we just need to make sure that we have a culture of self-reflection, not a culture of doubts and not at all a culture of indifference. Self reflection should lead us to the point where we are more secure about who we actually are - that doesnt mean that we all the time are 100% sure where we go... but it is the first step...

Let's not be afraid of ourselves, let's not be afraid of the consequences. Why shouldnt we take risks? Why shouldnt we fuck something up? Whatever the outcome might be, we have learned something...

CLICK

Who's stealing our dreams or where do we lose them?

As the year ended and I stept in to the new journey of 2006, I had deep thoughts on what should this year be about? What would be my next steps, what should be my next experiences?

...realised it is not easy, realised in the world today it is more and more dificult to find myself... and even more difficult to follow my true self... With every talk, with every story, with every sign, I am driven in different directions, chosing different courses, playing different roles... untill I get tired and lost and confused by this cheep therter play and started the JOURNEY TOWARDS MYSELF...

I'm ask my self WHO AM I? WHO IS MYSELF? and WHAT DO I DREAM OF? WHAT HAVE I ALWAYS DREAMED OF? and more WHAT IS IT THAT ALWAYS MAKE MY BLOOD RUSH AND MY HEART BIT FASTER?

After finding the answers to this questions... everything should be easy but is actually not...cause just than THE FIGHT STARTS and the bigger question:

ARE YOU STRONG ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU CAN BECOME?

ARE YOU STRONG ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR YOUR DREAMS...

...Or are you going to give up , ending up part of a generation that dreamed it could revolutionise the world, but ended up giving in to "reality"?